HA!

I got this in my "truthbox" thingy a couple of days ago in response to my status update and thought I'd share it since I found it funny:

in love yet again huh? i feel sorry for that guy cuz ur just gonna end up breaking up with him in a month or so since u can't stick with a commitment. oh and compared to ur 36" ass my 42" ass is way better than urs haha!

Whoever sent it must be immensely dedicated to me (knowing my ass measurement and past "commitments") and I'm wicked flattered. Some people just don't understand that there is absolutely no possible way of upsetting via the interweb. Submitting an insult through MySpace's anonymous box is the lowest of lows. It just simply shows the type of person that you are. Kudos to you for being a coward :)

Aside from this funny thing I came across tomorrow is our big encounter. For those of you unaware Eddie and I were friends for quite sometime now. He's now my significant other and we've been ridiculously loyal to each other. He's from the UK and is an all amazing, hardcore, brutally honest person and I admire him greatly. We chatted online, shared stories, acted like goofballs, were extremely loyal, and had a friendship before anything really sparked. Never ever did we imagine we would meet until now.

Great things do happen when you least expect it and to those who wait. He has shown and done more than any man I have ever been with and he's thousands of miles away! If someone is truly loyal to you they will do whatever they can within their power to help you, protect you, make you happy, and be with you. There are no boundaries and he as shown me this and much more.

He understands me better than anyone and I understand him better than anyone as well. We share the same views on many things and we are both crazy for each other. For the first time in my life I can feel I'm doing the right thing. There are no secrets, no hard feelings, no ridiculous past that lingers, absolutely nothing negative. My mind is finally clear and I can focus on the now. I had such a horrible habit of holding on to the past, holding grudges, thinking I was happy and that's the best I will ever get, etc but he's helped in ways I can't describe by genuinely listening and understanding way before things got serious. I'm truly blessed and I'm now a high believer in fate. Everything feels so right, it's one of those things.

Tomorrow we will finally meet. Finally hug, kiss, see each other face to face, grope lol. Tomorrow at 5:00pm is our Doomsday :)

Impatiently Waiting

In exactly one week I will be in his arms.

Work, work, work

I return to my waitressing job Dec 11th. Apparently the person starting the drama and not cooperating with the other waitresses is fired. I called in today because Jenn kept telling me that they really want me back (customers and employees), we brought business to them not to mention we aren't the drama bullshit type. I'm also going to have to be more aggressive towards the men there when they persist in getting to know me more than just a waitress. I'm not interested guys, thanks.

Things on the other hand are going great and I have a great feeling about the future.

Better than Gothic Beauty

I made it better than Gothic Beauty magazine and that's on a true artist's gallery of the month. My aim isn't to become a mainstream artist, make ridiculous money and have "followers". My pure goal in this whole modeling thing is to create art that is why you will hardly ever see me modeling designer clothing, accessories, etc. I admire those artists for that don’t get me wrong but I’d rather not be someone’s mannequin and create my own things, I like to create my very own fantasy. Modeling, sewing, drawing, make-up artistry, and painting are my only creative outlets from the everyday bullshit so I make the most out of it. It means a lot more to me if I know it’s coming from something/someone significant/influenced which most of my shoots are based from.

For those moments we share (photographer and me)I feel like a super model in front of the lens. My feeling is even greater if s/he is greatly influenced by the way I work. I’ve influenced and made beautiful art with many artistic souls and hopefully continue do so. Time is geatly limited now.

Please check out Billy Sheahan’s Gallery of the month to see our art. Copy and paste. Thanks.

www.billysheahan.com/#/Gallery of the Month/Gallery of the Month/1

I'm sick

Everyone in the family is pretty ill especially the mother and I. My body has a horrible immune system so I should stay away from everyone for like...ever. Aside from the physcal illnesses everything is running smoothly on my end. I'm impatiently counting down the days of Eddie's (Duck) arrival to the States. It's a late Bday present and an early Christmas gift for me which is the best gift I will ever receive. Yup yup Dec. 5 will be the day we will come face to face. Excited and nervous I am and the feelings will get intense as the day draws near simply because I want everything to go well.

I'm in utter blisssss.....

:D

I'm absolutely buttfuck exploding with excitement because Duck is coming all the way from the UK to Shitcago to see me. Yup just to see me :) I've never ever been this excited and happy in my life. It's ridiculous! The original plan was for me to head out there in Feb for his birthday, it's still happening it's just that we are seeing each other sooner now. I just had to tell the world about this!!!

I'm seriously wicked stoked :D :D :D

Updates

Currently employed at Cha Chas as a waitress working along with my beautiful awesome sister, Berlin. Finally steady income while still taking care of my grandmother. I will be going to the UK soon to finally meet Eddie :D yuss!

The good in my life is definitely outweighing the bad. I'm very happy right now.